The Ultimate Cheat Sheet To Life


If the sky is the limit, I am sixty floors closer to reaching it. My heart is beating the sweet sound of achievement. I'm standing on the top of the world and I'm looking down. I see people disguised as ants. I see dirty rooftops. I see cars stuck in traffic. And I see the fall that soon awaits me. I don't want to fall. But I will fall and it will hurt because life is … [Read more...]

How To Turn Your Life Around


I found the secret to life in a bottle of whiskey. I never learned shit in school. I learned more about life and people and money and love at 2 am at the local bar. You learn a lot at 2 am. The hours on the clock are a passageway between life and death and the day is life and the night is death and 2 am is the bridge that separates life from death. I walked that bridge four … [Read more...]

How To Make The World Take Notice


I called a local business that specializes in picking up junk. They named their price. I hung up. I got too much cheap Indian blood flowing through my veins for me to be paying their ridiculous asking price. I kept the broken TV parked on the side of my room. Then my mom got fed up and she told me to throw it outside. Park it on the side of the street and put a "FREE" sign … [Read more...]

How To Be Vulnerable


I lose myself only to find myself only to lose myself again to the regret that lingers behind the doors I never opened. Truth I never spoke. Words I never said. Love I never confessed. I'm not living it right. This can't be life. I wear a mask over a mask over a mask so I can hide myself from you. I hide behind an invisible sheath of white cloth that keeps me … [Read more...]

How Love Can Delay Death


Note: Linda and Kenny were my neighbors neighbor and truth be told I didn't know them that well. I was a child and I didn't comprehend all the events going on in my world. But I knew their story. They were legends in my cul-de-sac and they lived a life worth sharing. I don't know if they wanted their story to be shared so the names Linda and Kenny are used instead of their real … [Read more...]

The Greatest Man I’ve Ever Known…


His eyes are cold with untold stories of struggle. His face is ugly with wrinkles. His arms are cut with scars. His hair is thinning. His back aches with pain. His teeth are rotting. And I envy him. He turned $10 into a multi-million dollar business. He is the greatest man I have ever known. And his life made me realize that my life is destined for turmoil and heartache. The … [Read more...]

An Ode To The Boy I Used To Be…


I was digging through the vaults of posts I never published and I found a poem I wrote in 2011. A time full of misery because I was working tirelessly to help build someone else's the expense of my own. I decided to publish it today because it serves as a reminder that things are never as bad as they seem. After the rain, comes the sun...if you just hold onto your … [Read more...]

If You Are Broke, Try This…


I went away to college in California and expected the world to bow at my feet. It didn't. It fed me hot pockets for breakfast, lunch, and dinner instead. Actually that's a lie. I ate Lucky Charms for breakfast without the charms or the luck because I was broke. I had little to no money and I didn't know a single soul in San Diego. It was rough and lonely. Then six months … [Read more...]

How To Be A Modern Day Slave


I admit it. I was jealous. I was envious. I wanted my peers to succeed as long as they didn’t see more success than I did. I envy the people who are truly happy for the people around them when they succeed. That’s not me. I'm competitive to a fault. Other people’s success makes me feel insecure. Other people’s success makes me think about my mistakes and my failures … [Read more...]

No Love In The Heart Of The City


"But how? How the fuck do you know?" "You just know." I laughed. I didn't believe her. I couldn't believe her. It sounded like bullshit to me. Maybe it was a mother's way of protecting her youngest from the wild and harsh realities of life. I smiled and said, "OK, mom." But in reality, I made a vow to stay the man who could only love himself. Lust? Sure. Love? … [Read more...]